It’s a terrible feeling – when you slide back into old habits and fall out of the new path and the clarity that you had found, yet again! Why is it that the corporate world can suck us back in and make us forget what really matters all the time? I mean why can’t salads do that? Ha! Imagine if the hard things were easy!!
So yes, I got lost again ….I got sucked in to a division closure, the termination of 205 people, the restructung of the team I had left, after we acquired a little over two years ago. I did choose to remain a part of this vortex that sucked me in, so I am not a victim, but I am tired. While I don’t mean to make the loss of jobs of others about me, this was a department I built. This was my blood, sweat and tears. My missed family functions, missed dinner dates, missed Saturday’s from exhaustion. It was however, yet another reminder that it is the small things that matter. While I felt guilt, I felt the pain of altering these people’s lives – what I did know that I needed to be their small thing, so I stuck in there, fought for what was right for them, help them with their resumes and network where I could.
So now, with all the empty desks, the quiet, the loss of several people that I connected with each day – I find it only natural to have a sense of loss. I’m just not exactly how to get myself out of it.
How do I get back to the things I enjoy in life?
How do you take a leap of faith to your happiness, yet still be responsible to your obligations?
How do you know what will make you happy?
How do you exit a job that you feel is sucking the life out of you – before it’s too late?
So while I am still kind of lost – I am back to taking inventory of the moments that I enjoy ! 😉